gaps

i have been through alot of things this year. i've not change okay. i just grew up that's all. maybe you should try it or maybe in another case you never wanted to grow up. you couldnt stay like this forever. you have to take the first step so people could understand you more. you finally talk or maybe put it this way,writing a letter to me. im glad you did that. you finally let go the burden and all those madness that you've been carrying on your back for a long time. learn to forgive and forget okay. humans do make mistakes all the times. its our nature and thats what we always do. thats why we were given a second chance to undo what we had done in the past. you finally accept the truth but still we couldnt turn back to the way we used to be. there's always a gap doesnt it? no matter how much i've tried to convince you but in the end it would just never turn out to be way its supposed to be. remember how closed we used to be? yeah i miss hat alot. all i ever wanted is you to forgive me. i really hope you'll do. i just wanted to say that im tried. im tried for not talking to you. acting like you're invinsible. im sick of it. i cant live in a life full of darkness and guiltiness anymore. im not like you. im different and you're different. we both are different individuals okay. dont mixed it up and dont judge me with others. judging thats what i hate the most. hope you could really understand that.

chevalier lemon,,